0:00 Wanting to Know Why She's Miserable Even Though Self-Aware
0:42 Feeling "Hollow" No Matter What She Does
2:18 Needing to Be Understood & Doubting Anyone Can
5:12 Fearing Being Understood / Not Being "Fascinating" Anymore
6:56 "Groundhog Day" of Disappointing, Empty, Boring Life
10:36 Wishing She'd Had a Different Childhood / Wasting Her Life
13:00 The Disconnect From Her "Ugly Past Self" / Fantasy
15:45 The Process of Creating a New Self From a "Worthless, Disgusting" Past Self
19:05 Dissociation / External Presentation vs. Internal Experience / "Her" Celebrity
27:44 Trapped in the Dilemma of Wanting to "Heal" and Also Remain Special
29:41 External Sources of Well-being & Worth / Pros and Cons of Affirmation & Recognition / It's "Never Enough"
35:52 Fragmentation of Self / Nothing "Sticks" / Something is Wrong Inside
40:15 Wrapping Up / Looking for an Answer (a Key) / A New Way to Be Special