0:00 Wanting to Know Why She's Miserable Even Though Self-Aware
0:39 Feeling "Hollow" No Matter What She Does / Trying EMDR, CBT
3:53 Needing to Be Understood & Doubting Anyone Can
7:18 Fearing Being Understood / Not Being "Fascinating" Anymore
9:18 "Groundhog Day" of Disappointing, Empty, Boring Life
13:05 Wishing She'd Had a Different Childhood / Wasting Her Life
15:23 The Disconnect From Her "Ugly Past Self" / Fantasy
18:13 The Process of Creating a New Self From a "Worthless, Disgusting" Past Self
21:43 Dissociation / External Presentation vs. Internal Experience / "Her" Celebrity
31:48 Trapped in the Dilemma of Wanting to "Heal" and Also Remain Special / Needing Evidence to Make a Choice
38:27 External Sources of Well-being & Worth / Pros and Cons of Affirmation & Recognition / It's "Never Enough"
46:14 Fragmentation of Self / Nothing "Sticks" / Something is Wrong Inside
51:10 EMDR / Substance Use / Humiliation / Progress Roadblock of Needing to Be Special / Uncertainty / Evidence
56:59 Wrapping Up / Hope / Looking for an Answer (a Key) / A New Way to Be Special