0:00 Intro / "I'll Always Be a Narcissist" / Remission vs Recovery / Craving Chaos & Novelty to Fight Emptiness and Boredom
7:10 The "Creating a Scandal" Story / Revenge, Rationalization & Shame
15:54 A PTSD Moment / Blowing Up Friendship Bridges
20:13 The Development of NPD in Childhood / Need for Independence
23:54 His "Rebirth / Creating a New Persona to Battle the Self-Hate
27:00 Rough Spot / Social Group Breakdown / Another "Rebirth"
29:09 Therapy / Relationships / Fantasy of Ideal Love
32:18 Becoming More Self-Aware / Lying in Therapy / Shame
34:02 Parents / "They Had No Business Having Kids" / Sister's Troubles
39:50 Parents' Neglect / Current Situation / Strangling Incident
44:54 Do You Want to Have Kids?
47:24 Authenticity vs Performing / Fakeness / Specialness / Getting Reactions Out of People / Manipulation
55:00 Craving Real Connection But Not Having Faith He'll Be Loved
57:00 Getting "Too Close" for Comfort / Outro